Lately I've been feeling like I'm constantly running late or trying to catch up. It's almost like I have this endless "To-Do" list in the back of my mind that I never get around to. I'm either late for work, late for physical therapy, asking for a deadline extension on my latest set of wireframes or forgetting to pay a bill or run an errand.
The last time I felt like this was maybe about the same time a year ago -- I'm wondering if it's just the anticipated bustle of the holidays? I can't remember the last time I woke up peacefully with the freedom of taking the day anywhere it wanted to go, without the guilt of feeling unproductive at the end of the day.
I leave so many things laying around, uncompleted. It's an uneasy feeling: writing a to-do list and revisiting it two weeks later and realizing you have not checked off a single item. Is it an absence of motivation? Lack of energy? A diminishing drive of self-accomplishment? Or am I just exhausted... too fatigued to concentrate? Maybe it's just pure laziness. I've battled a case of the lazies all my life. When I was in elementary school, I remember laying lifeless on the bed forcing my mom or Yona to dress me while I was sleeping just to sleep an extra 10 minutes before school. There were a few periods in college and once in my professional life when I felt so numb and dull-brained that I was completely unable to be productive no matter how much I tried.
This time it's different. Sure it's affecting my work a little bit, but I feel like most of it is directed towards my homelife. Chores, errands, legal cases, bills, I just don't feel on top of everything like I usually am.
Maybe I need a vacation.
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