... groan ...
I am feeling the after-effects of eating French-Vietnamese sandwiches from Little Saigon's "Lee's Sandwiches"... not good. My cheeks are flushed, my tummy hurts... and... it's.. c-o-o-l-d..
Well I've been so busy I haven't had a chance to keep up my entries. Or go to school. Or fold my laundry. Things have been hectic!
Well first here's an update on Moley: He's done with his 4th week of training and can "stay" pretty well... unless there are distractions: other people, other dogs... well that doesn't help us much!!! He still pees on everyone he sees. Not to mention we stopped giving him his poo-poo medicine so he's eaten his poop another couple of times. Blecch. But he's still growing, and he's outgrowing his new clohtes :(
And as for the "business"... we're all set up now. We regularly buy inventory, we have a "system"... and we're looking to rent some office space because having four full racks of clothing + boxes + shipping supplies is not ideal in your living room! But things are working out really good. Our growth rate has been amazing... and my fingers are crossed.
And as for me... things have been tough. I haven't had as much time for school as I'd like to, but it's slowly changing. During my free time I browse online stores like Neiman Marcus, eLuxury, and BlueFly to scope out the items. I read fashion magazines. Wow. I'm liking this new job ;). I'm also reading a new book, The Nanny Diaries. I still watch my Passions and Days of Our Lives. I've added American Idol, The Bachelor, Mr. Personality, and America's Most Talented Kids to my Tivo list... yes I'm a reality-tv-whore.
I've done a lot of rethinking about -me-. I've noticed a trend. After getting "settled", I start changing and I don't know why, and I don't remember what I was like before. I get picky, I get defensive, I develop an attitude... and I am just generally very pessimistic. Maybe it has nothing to do with relationships and it's just phases I go through. I really don't know. But not only does it affect how others perceive me, or how they feel around me, it's also affecting how I perceive others. I get annoyed, I start to despise people, it's just ridiculous. And I'm only looking at what's on MY side. I don't even want to imagine what people think of me.
But then I tell myself that I'm going to "change" and be more aware of how I act, what I think. And I realize... is that how much work it takes to just "live"? That you have to stay alert and think everything through before you say it, consider consequences and other people's thoughts before you do something. Well yes, up to a point. But when the smallest things you do either annoy or offend someone, isn't there a possibility that -THEY- just might be TOO SENSITIVE? Yes, I admit, I'm sarcastic up to a point... but it's easy to distinguish between my sarcasm and bitterness... isn't it?
And whatever happened to the art of conversation? I thought a conversation was when two people bounce their ideas off of one another. Why is it considered so RUDE for one to pipe in a comment or response before the other finishes... when there is no intention to halt the flow of information... when sometimes you want to just add an "I was thinking the same thing..." or "But what about..." or "That's not what I thought..." And isn't it ironic that the same applies to when you have NOTHING to reply back? The other person gets offended, feels ignored.
Since when was there a book written on how to converse? The proper rules of conversing?
There are just too many rules to live by to please everyone.